I have had lots of different feelings over the last two weeks.
Denial
Sadness
Anger
Jealousy
Sadness
I think the last two are where I am right now. I am sad. I am unmotivated. And I am jealous. Jealous of others who are pregnant, mostly. Why can they be and not me? I find myself thinking "good luck, I hope it lasts for you" which is a really crappy thing of me to think. I also see pregnant teens and think "you don't deserve that." I mean there are lots of people who don't even want their babies and they have perfect pregnancies and perfect babies. Michael and I planned, hoped, dreamed and our baby died.
It is so not fair.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
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I am so sorry for your loss. You don't know me, but I came across your blog on another mother's blog I had been following. I know this is an older post, but wanted to let you know I feel like I could have written this entry myself, so don't feel bad for "crappy thoughts" and know you aren't alone in them. Take care...Hope you are doing well....
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