October 6th 2008 - A positive pregnancy test! We were SO excited.
The pregnancy was going great. I had bad morning sickness (well, all day sickness) but the baby and I were otherwise very healthy.
December 23rd 2008 - The first appointment with my new OB doctor. I previously had a midwife but my mom and husband talked me out of doing the homebirth for my first pregnancy. I loved my new doctor though! This was the day we first heard the baby's heartbeat. It was strong and perfect. Beating in the 160's.
January 22nd 2009 - Second appointment with OB. I was 18 weeks and 5 days pregnant at this time. Perfect heartbeat again, beating in the 140's. Dr. made a guess that the baby was a boy.
We were supposed to have the 19/20 week ultrasound on January 26th to find out the gender. But due to my sickness I had been off work for a while and my job had to let me go. So we changed to u/s date to February 4th because of the change in insurance.
February 4th came and Michael and I were super excited. My sister (who is due June 17th, just 3 days before I was) found out the day before that she was expecting a girl. We arrived at the Dr's office and I hopped up on the table. The tech looked a little confused as she watched the screen. She left for a few minutes and came back with a doctor that we hadn't met before. They looked at the u/s screen for a long time without ever saying anything. Finally I asked if everything was okay.
"We aren't seeing a heartbeat" she said.
"Come back tomorrow morning to talk with your doctor"
Everything after that was a blur. Michael and I prayed all that night and we just knew that a mistake had been made and Thursday morning at the appointment our dr. would assure us that everything was okay. It didn't happen that way though. I insisted that my dr. do another u/s. She did and there had been no changes. The baby's heart had not miraculously started beating again. We decided that I would check into the hospital on Friday at 5:00 pm to start the induction.
February 6th -7th 2009 - We checked into the hospital Friday night and started IV's and Cervadyl. Saturday morning my Dr. started the induction with Cytotec. I didn't really go into labor until about 4 pm. I got an epidural at 6 pm and delivered little Dylan Thomas at 10:20 pm.
As soon as he was born the Dr. knew why he passed away. His little umbilical cord was twisted very tight.
Dylan weighed 2.4 ounces and was 6 3/4 inches long.
We held him and loved him for a while. Then the nurses took him to clean him up. We had a photographer come from Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep and she took some beautiful pictures.
Dylan's funeral took place Tuesday, February 10, 2009.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
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I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful son. His tiny body reminds me so much of our daughter. She was only 4.4oz and 8.5 inches long at 18 weeks when I went into labor. Hugs to you! Feel free to come by and say hello at my site and know that I am always here for you if you need to talk. I am glad that you got the chance for NILMDTS to come and take pictures, noone told us about them till months later.
ReplyDeleteI too and deeply sorry for the loss of little Dylan. We lost our precious daughter at 23 weeks 3 days on 1-4-09. She was 14.8 oz and 10 1/2 inches. Your pictures are beautiful. I am so glad NILMDTS was able to be there for you...unfortunately, the photographer was unavailable the day Zoe died. Hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteAs I read your story I was in tears. Although we lost our baby at 12.5 weeks, I can not imagine the sadness that follwed what you went through. I am so terribly sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband. I will also be praying that you are blessed with a happy and healthy baby one day hopefully soon! ((HUGS)) to you my dear!
ReplyDeletebeautiful thanks for sharing hun.. Leia should be 4 months old now. 4 months old.. Had I just went to the dr's when I said I thought I should she would be alive I can feel it.
ReplyDeleteThey came in and said no heart beat also... Then i was told you have to deliver.. what??what some cruel joke eh>