Thursday, January 28, 2010

It's that time

Happy New Year everyone! It's been a long time. I've avoided my blog for a long time because everytime I'd come here it would make me sad. But in the last week or so, I've been coming back to my blog for comfort. February is quickly approaching and with it the memories of The News and Dylan's birth.

On December 17, 2009 we welcomed our beautiful baby girl, Vivian Noelle, into the world. She is an amazing miracle and blessing from God. We are enjoying every minute with her.

But with Dylan's birthday coming up, I have been sad. I miss him. I love my little girl so much, but no one can fill the hole in my heart that Dylan left. It is true that you can feel like your hurt is gone and your heart is healed and then suddenly the wound can burst open again when you're least expecting it. I did not think that this time would affect me. I thought we'd arrive at his birthday, visit his grave, cry a bit, and move on. But I don't see it happening that way, as I'm already grieving again. I guess the others are right when they say you're never really done grieving...

Last night I made this slideshow in memory on Dylan, for his birthday. I hope you enjoy. (You'll need to go to the bottom of the blog and pause my playlist so you can hear the song on the video)